Finday, Matamín 21st, 7703 (Friday, 02-25-2011) Friday-Free-For-All Post (3FA Article) #10: The Death Of me

 i don’t want any of You to freak out.  i haven’t made any decisions yet….

Today, i was presented with the final divorce decree for me to review before signing.  Since October 22^nd, 2010 (when my ex-wife pulled a Jerry Maguire on me by taking me to a crowded restaurant on a Friday night to serve me divorce papers), i have been trying to be very reasonable and cordial to her.  i have bent over backwards to be civil and to give her anything she wanted.  i have asked for very little, despite the fact that she makes roughly 4.5 times more per year than i do.  All i have asked for is a couple of furniture items, the chance to buy the car, and maybe some other small things that are too trivial to remember.  i have set a budget for myself and am barely making it month-to-month.  Things were beginning to look up just a bit, as i have gotten my budget set and am actually surviving on a poverty-level income.

Imagine my surprise when today i read through the divorce decree and find the child support figure we had agreed to more than doubled, no mention of me being able to buy the car, and a few other zingers.  So much for her trying to be nice or civil or cordial or whatever.  Apparently, ruining my Life isn’t enough.  There must be more inflicted until i literally can’t survive.

So, i don’t know if i’ll be writing this blog much anymore.  Right now, i am thinking i may have to move in with my parents to survive, because i simply won’t be able to pay the child support figure included in the final decree.  If that # is approved, i will have to quit my job and move or become homeless.  That means i won’t have custody of my daughter at all.  i don’t know what will happen, but i know that i just simply cannot afford the number in the agreement.

So, hopefully i will be blogging in the future, but — if i’m not — then, just know that i thank all of You for reading, for Your comments both here and personally to me, and for Your Love.  i would imagine there will be no blogs next week and perhaps they might resume on March 7^th, 2011.